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May 17 2012

Living with my parents can be a headache…

by z e E

I usually try to keep this blog positive, but let’s face it… it’s a blog and I’m entitled to vent when I need to, right?! Right.

For those who don’t know, I moved out last year to take a paid internship with Disney for almost a year. So I’m well aware of how to take care of myself. I had to move back with my parents because the internship was over and even though both me and my husband had plans to stay across the country, it just wasn’t going to work out. So we were going to move back here with my parents then figure out our next move.

I know at 27 it isn’t that big of a deal if you still live with your parents but I feel like shit. Not just because of my age but because my parents are still under the impression that I’m 17. They constantly hound me (in a rude way) about eating. They bother me until no end and even more so if I tell them I’m working on homework or a final or a project. Not only that, but my mom has this fantastic hobby of bitching at people for any random nonsense reason when she’s bored. Literally.

It’s just so frustrating. My parents treat me like a child, they still do the fucked up shit they did when I was a kid and they yell at me like they have no common sense. I know I should be thankful that I have somewhere to stay but seriously? There’s just so much crap going on here that has nothing to do with me but is taken out on me that I just can’t wait to move out again.

Ugh. You’d think things would change once I got older. But no, everything is still the same.

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May 12 2012

Time won’t slow down…

by z e E

I have no idea how many times I’ve used that title on blog entries over the last few years. But it always feels like life will never slow down.

Bio class has been kicking my ass big time. I’m not exactly sure what this teacher wants from us but she did mark us down points on our presentation because we dressed “too casual”. Is that legal? To mark us down because of what we were wearing? What about the people coming from work? I guess. Not to mention in our last class she spent FOUR HOURS drawing on the board and doing a power point. We couldn’t even ask questions. We just sat there. Bored. All of us.

But this has been happening…

My sister in law (in the middle) left for the Marines last weekend. The kids all finally got together one day and decided to play volleyball in the front yard. I tried to stay out of their away, away from the ball and managed to snap a few pictures. That’s M on the left.

I can’t believe she’s old enough to join the military! We’ll see her in 11 weeks.

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May 11 2012

Fooding: Mochicream

by z e E

Sometimes I like to click around Yelp and hope that I stumble across somewhere really cool to try out. And sometimes, it works in my favor!

I accidentally stumbled on a place called Mochicream about an hour away from here, but I commonly venture to that city so it wasn’t a big deal. Plus it was down the street from my favorite mall!

Mochicream is located in the corner of a Japanese grocery store. If you don’t know what mochi is, it’s sort of a rice cake that has been pounded and shaped. It’s really soft and chewy. The first time I ever had it was in mochi ice cream, I didn’t realize at the time that it was commonly used for bean paste pastries as well. However, both me and M aren’t fans of bean paste (I think it’s more an acquired taste lol) so imagine how excited we were to find out that this place has mochi is several different flavors!

We ventured there twice, the top row was the first visit where I got Peach Yogurt (left) with its bean paste consistency and M got Double Mango (right) which had pretty much whipped cream and fruit in the middle — so good! The second visit which is the bottom row, I got Apple Pie (left) which had whipped cream and fruit filling while M got Chocolate Banana (right) which had a bean paste consistency (and wasn’t very yummy).

Mochicream also offers many other desserts but each time we went was an hour before closing so I guess by then everything was gone.

If you’re in the bay area and craving some mochi, I’d definitely check this place out!

**cross posted from my food blog*

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Apr 28 2012

Whoever came up with “in-laws” needs to burn in hell

by z e E

While I am married and I do love my husband very very much (most days), I’m not a fan of the concept of marriage and I’m certainly not a fan of the concept of in-laws. I’m pretty sure this comes from my experience with my parents marriage, if you can even really call it that but while I’m aware that not every marriage is awful I can’t help but still feel this way.

I can’t really blame it all on my parents experience though, I’m just not a fan of certain people in my husband’s family. But not a fan I really mean I don’t trust them. And with good reason, I was with my husband for six years before we got married and I’ve seen the good and the bad sides of the people in his family. Granted my family isn’t perfect either and we have our own problems… which is why I tend to stay away from them too. But my husband… he’s the nice guy. He forgives only to be burned again and again. I’m frequently wondering where his “breaking point” is, or if he even has one sometimes but it just frustrates me, the things they do/say and how he forgives way more than he should. He’s getting a little better at just pretending that they’re not trying to contact him though, so at least there’s that.

My sister in law on the other hand, lately she’s been making me want to KICK PUPPIES IN THE FACE and I loves puppies but oh man!!! A little bit of background, when M was in the military she kept me company while he was gone and she was pretty much the only person who helped me set up my wedding, put together the wedding favors with me, helped me address the the invitations, stood in the dressing room with me and helped me change into dress after dress after dress until I found the perfect one and she’s a very caring person. But she can also be VERY stupid and selfish. Over the last year to two years she started dating this guy who’s pretty much no good for her and she shut everyone out.

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Apr 1 2012

March goals recap!

by z e E

Last month I started a monthly goals list which is pretty much just a list of things I hoped to accomplish by the time the month was over. Since it’s the first month I attempted, I tried to make goals that were attainable and not too extreme. Like with all lists, I hoped to at least cross off half of what was on there but I wasn’t going to beat myself up if I didn’t.

Purge things every week before class

Mail out RAK (which shoulda been done early Feb)

~~Make homework #1 priority~~

~~Figure out a system schedule for blogging~~

~~Take more pictures~~

Drink 1/2 a bottle of water per day

Try 2 different types of cheeses

Read 3-4 books

Read 1 Classic book

Tidy closet OR desk

Re-organize a book shelf

~~Try Salted Caramel~~

So how did I do?

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Mar 27 2012

Never ending homework…

by z e E

I finished my notes for week two’s PowerPoint on Friday. Created the template the other day and even though I’m done with my half, I’m still worried. I don’t know why but with this class I’ve developed an obsession with getting my homework done. NOW. So much in fact that I’m already working on my week four individual assignment since I’ll be missing that class and even though I’m going on vacation (FINALLY) I’m a little upset I’ll be missing the points from not showing up to class. But I really, really, REALLY need a vacation right now.

Aside from the tremendous amount of homework I’ve been needing to do, I’ve been trying to slowly crawl back into the things I usually do (oh the life of a college student). I’ve put off a lot of my reading, which is NOT good considering that publishers are waiting for my reviews and every email sent to remind me makes me hate myself a little bit more. Went on an adventure yesterday for the first time in a few weeks and it was somewhat successful.

I haven’t been blogging that often because I was having what I thought was browser problems but really it was my mouse. Every time I’d click a tab on Mozilla or close a tab, a new completely blank tab would open up. Turns out my mouse wasn’t working as well as it use to and it would double tap when that wasn’t my intention. I got a new mouse though and everything is back to normal, thank goodness!!

I think today I’m just going to jot down some notes, and worry about the actual assignment when it’s that week. I just NEED to jot down the notes because next week we have to do a 12-15 slide PowerPoint on something totally different. Yes, 12 to freakin 15 slide and a 20 minute presentation. I’ll try not to pass out from stage fright. I CAN DO THIS. I can work for Disney and I can audition for a commercial but I can’t do a freakin presentation? I mean, really? Give yourself a little bit more credit Aries.

It’s been raining like crazy lately. I swear winter decided to come late, because it’s been FREEZING too. Remind me again why I ever liked winter? I miss rainy days in Florida, they were so much better and much more exciting. Lightning, buckets of rain and sky cracking thunder. Oh I miss it! California, you have NOTHING for me anymore. Besides maybe really good authentic Asian food.

Anyway, I need to finish these notes so I can get around to doing my chores (a woman’s job is never done!), the mess in this room is seriously starting to annoy the hell out of me.

I got Angry Birds Space last night (whoo for finding out you have $2 left on your iTunes credit)! There’s a new bird!! I haven’t played it yet, but I’m excited! I hated Angry Birds when I first started playing it, but like all other puzzle games, I ended up loving it. It’s my calming game. Until I can charge my DS and get back on some Zenses! I also finished the Cinderella world on Kingdom Hearts: Birth by Sleep and now I’m at Snow White world, which I’m NOT excited for. I guess I started over with Aqua before I stopped playing. She’s level 3 and I need to level her a little bit more… another world I’m not looking forward to? Stitch world. That space ship irritated the hell out of me last time. Hopefully it’ll be a little smoother this time. Either way, I need to finish Birth by Sleep already so I can play ReCoded. Which I got the day it dropped but haven’t even opened it yet (and it’s been what, a year almost?). Blahhh.

Cold days make me feel soooo unproductive!!

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Mar 25 2012

Bits of my weekend

by z e E

Original & Blood Orange Pinkberry // Meeting Ari
Bacon Maple cupcake // nail polish & video games ♥

This is a recap of last last weekend. Not in order, because… I have no idea but it’s bothering me lol.

The other week we ventured over to my favorite mall which happens to be like an hour away to look for something for M to wear to the wedding, but came up empty handed. We had lunch at The Counter which is quickly turning into an addiction and we got somePinkberry since it’s been so long. And to be honest, I really wanted to try that cone circle thing (which was DELICIOUS). We got half original and half blood orange which was a really refreshing mix.

The next day was the wedding, we hung out nearby and got Krispy Kreme! I also may or may not have ran across the parking lot and street — in the rain — to get Thin Mint Girl Scout cookies. I’ve been searching everywhere for them!! I was tempted to get two boxes, but I only got one. I’ll be good! We got to meet our niece Ari before the wedding, they gave her to me because Raena KNOWS I don’t like touching babies and no one wanted to take her! M kept poking her and she was squirming and making faces. Freaked me OUT! Haha. But he took her eventually (she slept through the whole ceremony) and he looked SO cute with her! He was talking to her and giving her kisses. Makes me a little sad that I swore off on not having kids. Sorry boo.

Spent the rest of the weekend painting my nails and playing video games (:

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Mar 14 2012

One step forward, two steps back

by z e E

This last week has been blah. But the highlight has got to be talking to my favorite on the phone for the first time in YEARS (because you know, he hates me, wahhh! Haha)! I’m feeling a ton better since I stopped taking the iron pills for the last few days, so thank goodness for that. Now I just have to find something to substitute it. I’m a little behind on my March month goals, which depresses me, but I try not to soak in it too much or I’ll just procrastinate even more.

Things would be a lot easier if I wasn’t so scared to do other things on my own. It’s Leap Year, I should leap. And I keep telling myself it will be okay! It will be fun! And the other side of me just wants to curl up in a tight ball in a corner and throw a tantrum. Oh woe is you, my other side.

I will never understand why people decide to stay home and play a video game all day everyday for months and LITERALLY never leave their house. Like, literally. The people he plays games with are sad sad people (you live in SoCal where there’s amazing food and BEACHES, why are you sitting at HOME?). I will never understand why people decide to just ride through life and not actually live it. Maybe it’s just me and my obsession with time. *Shrug.

There is so much I want to do. So much I want to accomplish. So much I want to experience. So much I want to see. And I don’t know, I feel like I’m being pulled back. I’m still feeling a little at a loss as to what exactly I want to do now, I have a good idea, but I don’t feel AS passionate about it as I did about Disney. I mean I am passionate about it, but not as intense I guess is what I’m trying to say. Maybe I just need time to let it work it’s way through and sink in.

Rome wasn’t built in one day.

I should get that tattooed on me or something, it’s a nice reminder.

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Mar 11 2012

Health… and stuff

by z e E

I’m debating on making a list of foods I need to eat each day/week. My body has been going through some weird changes the last week or so. I’m not 100% sure it has to do with my health or it’s an allergic reaction (to what though?) or whatever, but some things around here need to change, now.

M freaked out awhile ago and started getting on me about taking my iron pills, so I have been all week, and OMG!! It’s been making me feel awful . I feel more sluggish and weak and I’m constantly tired. It makes me feel incredibly off balanced and I can’t deal with that feeling. While the iron pills do seem to be helping with other things, it’s always taking away a lot. Decided last night to stop the iron pills (and today I feel *so* much better since I skipped it) and maybe I’ll go back to One A Day and Iron Bran cereal or something.

The reason I bring up making a list of foods I need to eat is because a year or so ago I stopped eating beef. I don’t know, I kind of just hit a point where I couldn’t stomach it anymore. This did not make M happy lol. He was not okay with me just eating fruits and veggies but he stepped back and let me… but not without protesting a few times. Like when I’d get sick. And now that this is happening, he’s really unhappy about it. I guess it doesn’t help that I’m already off weight balance and I’m tiny :\ I mean I eat beef, just not as often as I probably should. I can’t help it if I’d rather have lettuce and pickles for lunch (I mean I have other stuff too, but I’m just sayin)! But I can’t really deny that the burger I had for lunch today made me feel like a million times better.

*sigh

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Mar 5 2012

Bits of my weekend

by z e E

Bay Area adventures: Paris Baguette & Mochicream
Sunday lunch // headache cures // shredded squid!

This weekend was filled with my favorite thing… FOOD!!! On Friday M took me out on an adventure. We started with Paris Baguette in Palo Alto for lunch. That sandwich was delicious and the place was super affordable. Not to mention that the cafe was really cute. We spent a bit of the afternoon at the Stanford Shopping Center. I actually went into Sprinkles and didn’t get anything for the first time ever (GAAASP, I know) and we had a tackle fight in front of Sephora because I was trying to escape and he was trying to pull me away lol. Then we went to get his free chocolate bar for checking in via FourSquare which he named “Martin” because it had no brand name.

The rest of the weekend was spent well, eating. We had our usual Sunday lunch (Chipotle and Panera Bread) and we stopped by Target to get some stuff along with a Passion Tea Lemonade at Starbucks (why doesn’t the Target in our city have a Starbucks?!) to try to ease my headache, which usually works. Came home and snacked on my childhood favorite… shredded squid!

I’m starting to feel a little under the weather, hopefully it passes. M on the other hand is being a big baby and swearing like he’s sicker than me and cooing for attention. Boys!

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